Tuesday, May 11, 2004

I get annoyed when...

...the media are relentlous in highlighting the relationship plight of Generation X/Y and our inability to find a partner, settle down, get married, have kids and a 40 year mortgage all before the age of 30-35? (btw is it coincidence that the word 'mortgage' includes the french word 'mort' - to die?) Really, we're not losers, its just that in the last few generations, you got to die in your 50's and 60's. Now we've realised that we've got a good 70-80 years to kill before the 'afterlife' of whatever we believe in. This is much longer than previous generations, so hey - just gives us more time to procrastinate before we shoulder the responsibilites of procreating and major soul destroying loans.

Oh, and by the way, we should also eliminate the word 'spinster' from the dictionary. I'm going to stick it up the sphincter of the next person who directs that title towards me. And I haven't even hit 25 yet.

Sunday, May 09, 2004

We were friends; not great ones, but as good as you can get when you're thrown together by circumstance. For months we were each others constant companions, and we saw each other almost everyday. it was a rather comfortable friendship that was heavy on laughs and light on the deeper stuff. We both liked to keep the personal stuff private.

And then exams came around
And then his life started coming together
And then I got a full time summer job
And then he met other girls
And then I decided to get serious about uni.

I can't remember who first stopped communicating with who, but it happened. And now we're just two people who drop generic "hi how's it going" emails to each other once a month. I miss my friend.

Tuesday, February 24, 2004

and so it begins...

...when summer is about to end; my summer has been a little empty in the old friends department since some of them have been travelling overseas. And while I may attribute my bouts of insomnia to the hot weather, in reality it's this constant whispering in my head that as one by one my dear chums straggle back to melbourne, the dynamics of our friendships will have altered slightly. The one that disturbs me the most is one of my dearest friends who returns after six months from a student exchange in England. We've known each other since we were 13, and been with each other through all the struggles of adolescence. At uni together we've been through the boozing, parties and this whole new world of socialising and networking that it brings. Our relationship is rather complicated; having similar lives and having a common network of friends there are consequently slivers of competitiveness and traces of envy and lonliness when one of us decides to head off into uncharted territory without the other. My friend is the one that bolts forward as I trot along at a more contented pace, but we've always remained within each others sight. I'm afraid that she's outgrown me, or has become something that I've never know could be part of her. It is very naive for me to ever wish that we would have continued to have all our major experiences in each others presence. But the fact remains that the wish still lingers, and I don't know how to get rid of it.

have you seen...

...the movie 'The Spanish Apartment'? It'll make you want to move there pronto. If only my uni life was as free and exciting as that...*sigh*. One meeting with my overly protective parents will make you understand how I could want for such a life :).